New shiz.

My life has been absolutely chaotic this past week. I was brutally reminded of the depths that people will stoop to simply to continue their own agendas of pain and malice towards people who have done nothing but love them. Am I perfect? Of course not - I don't know anyone who honestly believes they are. When you lie awake at night, you probably think to yourself about what you are going to do the next day to be a good person, productive member of society, loving wife/husband, loyal daughter/son, effective employee, whatever the fuck it is...it probably is NOT how you can cause MORE pain and MORE sorrow and MORE turmoil in a person's life. Especially when that person wants nothing more than to mourn with YOU and be there for YOU after such a horrific, unbelievable, SENSELESS death.
After shock comes tears comes vomiting comes anger comes more tears comes confusion comes anger comes murderous anger comes realization comes recollection comes collection comes focus comes gratitude comes calm. So, there you can see the progression of my emotions in the past week and I think I am moving towards calm. I should be grateful to finally be shutting the door on a part of my life that I was never ready to give up. GIVE UP!!